Over It

So can i just start off by saying...i am completely over everything, i mean EVERYTHING that is going on in my life right now. Done. Im so mentally tired of everything going on, the weddings, work, money...over it. I am beyond over waking up being so F'N stressed, and going to bed the same way. I'm tired of waking up not hearing from garett, tired of waking up feeling like i have to walk on eggshells around everyone around me. The weddings I have in October, im ready for them to be over with. This makes me NEVER want to be in a wedding again, until I get married, even then...its gonna be small, simple, and to the point. Im pretty much over the switching they are doing with Garetts hours over there. I mean this is the 3rd time in less than 2 months that they have changed the hours that he works. C'mon Marine Corps, get your shit together so I can talk to my boyfriend at normal hours. Gah im over this fucking deployment. OVER IT, just like everything in my life right now. After the weddings... forget going out, im gonna stay at home...i dont care if I sound like a homebody, and that I have no life...im done trying to please EVERYONE, trying to make EVERYONE happy. Tired of feeling like im not #1 to A-N-Y-O-N-E, when i try my damndest to put so many people ahead of myself...im so tired of people if i could seclude myself from the world right now i would do it at the snap of my fingers. D.O.N.E