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yup...thats exactly how i feel right about now. D-day just got moved to a sooner date. :( it was only a couple of days but a couple of days that i wasnt prepared for. I really felt like there was more time, but its coming way too fast. plus this arguing isnt helping. i've never in my life wanted to wish away time to 2012, i've never wanted to see that year as much as i want to see it now. im looking forward to seeing him get off those ugly white buses, and ready to jump into those arms of his. i know i wont be alone in this, someone else who's going to have it hard, his sister...she's so worried about him, but i know she's SO PROUD of him. &  like she said we have to be there for each other. Im so lucky to have no only the support of my family, but knowing she's there to talk to too, im so thankful for that.

These past two weekends with him have been AMAZING.
We went out on the lake saturday evening, and on the boat were probably 6 or 7 other people, but it felt like there was only me and him, it was sweet, romantic, and i was just at peace and happy, and there's no other place i would've rather been. Him telling me how happy I make him, and how he can't wait to have me there when he gets back from this depolyment, the kisses on my neck, forehead, i was li ke a little kid. it felt amazing. I may not have shown it but inside i was bursting with happiness, i felt as if i was smiling from ear to ear. I was falling even harder, I was on cloud 9 and no one or nothing could've brought me down from it. That feeling, i've never EVER felt before, and i dont EVER want it to go away. I swear when he leaves he's taking a part of me with him...

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