i knew...

that this day was goin to come eventually...i seriously hate everything today. i dont wanna get out of bed, i dont wanna eat, i dont wanna do anything but lay here and cry. i want him home so bad. it sucks bc i know he loves me and cares about me, just him being so far away its hard to feel it. i wish there was a way to know...bc right now emailing/skyping and a phone call once a week just doesnt seem like enough. i feel like the most shittiest gf because i feel this way. i shouldnt feel this way, im not supposed to tell him im upset, i wish there was a way to know, bc words right now just dont seem to be enough....