today...

is another one of those days.

its been shitty...i just wanna go home & go to sleep, actually go home, talk to my love, and then go to sleep.
im so ready for him to get his laptop...its been almost a month without seeing his face, and i miss it SO much. if i didnt have pictures of him everywhere i go, id go crazy...he keeps me going...he keeps me sane...(sometimes) ;)
--WORK BLOWS & I WANNA GO HOME--
i want aug/sept to be OVER with. for some reason i want October to be here SO BAD. weddings/halloween/football. lets pray september goes by SUPER fast.

i've been listening to alot of Rock music here lately (thanks to my lover)
Five Finger Death Punch & Theory of a deadman...

i NEED to get away. this place, and everyone here is driving me completely INSANE. i want to get away, i've been thinking about going back to jacksonville, and staying at the hotel in the room we stayed at the weekend he left, just for some comfort. sounds crazy, but i want to so badly.  being back at home sucks, i have to deal with all of my parents drama...and on top of that, money issues & garett being gone, im so stressed beyond belief. I barely have an appetite anymore & im tired all of the time, all i wanna do is cry, even thinking about anything anymore can make me cry at the drop of a hat... i can't remember the last time i got a good nights sleep...probably the night before garett left. yup. that was it. i didnt have a care in the world cuddled up with him, and thats all i want to go back to, in his arms, sleeping like nothing else in this world mattered.

ON ANOTHER NOTE....
im SO ready for tiffany's bachelorette party! its gonna be so fun!
Even though, i feel so guilty for going out and partying with him being gone, BUT i know he wants me to get out and do stuff...plus, itll help the time go by faster.

...i've spent alot of time here lately with my bestest friend in the whole wide world. gah i've missed her so much, and i've forgotten how much fun we have together, and why she is my absolutely best friend (girl) bc garett is definately my best friend too....im so excited about her possibly moving to charlotte within the next couple of months. more best friend time will be exactly what i need to get through the rest of this deployment, she's definately my rock, and i dont know what i would do without her.

Anyways...i better get back to doing NOTHING at work...6pm please hurry up...

I Love You Garett <3